It had never occurred to me that our lives, which had been so closely interwoven, could unravel with such speed. If I’d known, maybe I’d have kept tighter hold of them and not let unseen tides pull us apart.
Kathy: I come here and imagine that this is the spot where everything I’ve lost since my childhood is washed up.
I tell myself,
if that were true
and i waited long enough…
then a tiny figure would appear on the horizon
across the field and gradually get larger..
until I’d see it was Tommy.
He’d wave. And maybe call. I don’t let the fantasy go beyond that… I can’t let it.
I remind myself I was lucky to have had any time with him at all..
What I’m not sure about, is if our lives have been so different from the lives of the people we save. We all complete.
Maybe none of us really understand what we’ve lived through, or feel we’ve had enough time…
-Never Let Me Go (2010)
Remainders of a Life 